| ok so its been forever... yeah i think i may start this up ..
im in love with a boy who pays no mind to me. and its eatign me up.. i want him to know how i feel i want him to want me liek i want him.. but i kno its not gunna happen.. i want to move on i need to move on but i can't.. i don't know y i jsut can't..he was the first tru boy that i actually rreally liked.. i was so comfortable around him.. and i enjoyed his friendship and company.. and now im alone and miserable.. maybe i don't miss him maybe i just miss the attention and having someone... but its hard to find a good boyfriend or guy friend now... maybe im just really lonely and im usign this as an excuse.. i don't know but i want a boyfriend.. i need one.. i need to feel loved and wanted.. im such a needy person haha lol.. but seriously im depressed and teenage love SUCKS ...ughhhhh
no i def miss him </3 and im not sure y. when we first ended i didn't feel liek this.. i guess cause we remaind friends and all.. and then we stopped talking and i was ok.. i think and then i saw him and all the feelings came back.. adn now they are still here and he doesn't know how i feel.. i can't tell him how i feel.. cuase im afraid of what will happen. =/ i don't know |
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| well its been a while..
lol lets see i finished with my permit. and i went to a Matchbook Romance and Motion City Soundtrack concert.. that was good. but i get split from evryone i knew i was all bt myself..but it was fine i was by myself having a good time.. then i found jess and we went crowd surfing like 4 times right in a row and i got pushed into a mosh and was punch by one of the crazy kids ahha... lol my lip was swollen and bloody for a lil while. i bought a shirt and saw tons of kids from my school. tahts that.. uh we barely go a week of school without having a day or 2 off due to inclement weather conditions. lol im pretty pissed at some ppl right now. some say they are just jealous but i don't kno they are fuckin annoying backstabbing bitches.!! ugh i hate girls lol.. well my best friends are gay too. except Julie and eric.. lol the other 2 just piss me off and it feels liek they leave me out of everything and they go off and do shit and forget to invite me along. and forget to call me.. and forget to include me only when they need a ride without even asking.. jackholes!! i dunno monday was a bad day.. and today was ok then it got worse hope it'll be looking up i think im going to this basketball game at the school and i hope i see James there. that would be pretty sweet.=) ok im done for now. |
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| wow i haven't written in here in a super long time lol i think everyone gave up on their xangas..lol yeah now its to myspace..hmm well the TBS concerts was more then amazing i went crowd surfing twice!! wikid awesome!!! lol uh christmas was awesome new computer new flat screen t.v lol and a bunch of other things ...my birthday just past..it was pretty sweet..i wish i had a sweet 16 though =( anyways.. uh i get my permit pretty soon... i can't wait!! lol ok well i might start writing in here more.. we'll see.. |
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| hey hey!!! ok im updating finially...lets see so much junk is happening with the school sit. news reporters are at the school before during and after school..when i walk to school they bombard me ..adn when i leave school they bombard me..i am not going to say anythign to the news becuase i don't want to look liek everyoen else a bunch of lieng assholes..no one really knows what went down in the locker room but the ppl who were there..so everyoen shudl stop talking to the news,.,.i think its fuckin homo how the school is actign liek nothign happened..they won't let us talk about it in school they are acting stupid abotu teh sit. and they say that the only thing we are doing is starting rumors and blowign it out of proportion...well if that is so tru why won't they tell us what happend? that way everyoen will kno one story and no one would be lieing or exagerating...the school system is gay and so is everyone who is actign all snuff snuff about it.. everyones saying it wasn't that big of a deal and everyoen blew it up..well if it wasn't such a big deal then y did someone go to jail for it? i don't get it..u don't go to jail for rumors...so thats one thign...and to say that someone wasn't involved and then go say y would .___ . tell if ___ was involved...right there u just contradicted urself..all i have to say is LIARS!!! and ppl who think it is funny are assholes..cus its not...and society made it liek this..ok well im done with that issue!! i don't know whats tru or false with any of that....
um I hate SOMEONE! and i don't want to talk to them EVER again..yeah and thats all i have to say cus they mean nothing to me anymore all they do is lie lie lie...and ur nto worth my time!
besides all that everything else is good... i hate sepluveda...how can i be gettin a c i shuld be at an a but the dirtbag gave me a 24 average for one week because i was absent one day adn the next day i had no idea what was going On..BTICH!
ok well today it raiend and i usually love the rain...but not when its super cold out and the rain is colder then teh air... and u don't have a hood or umbrella so u wak home in ur peacoat soaking drippign wet...lol
NEw LAYOUT THNX TO JIMMY... yes matching song and layout...TBS ROCKS...CONCERT nOvEMBer 24! can't fuckign wait totally fuckin awesome... lol
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| hey hey whats up.. let me update u on my week..saturday is where i left off..um went to pp's we had nothign to do moms wanted us in after 9 ppl were arrested how GAY! w/e we did eric's sisters car paulina's house and the bitches did my house haha real funny p and eric! lol ok well sunday halloween um so much went on a guy on a mini motorcycle crashe dinto my moms car lol no big damage um he was pretty beat up oh well thats what u get for beig a drunk on a mini motorcycle... uh then nel's party..thats all im gunna say about that! lol
monday- i don't remember this day all teh way until wed.- all i kno is i kept getting in trouble for fighting with ppl...thats all lol
wednesday- went to erics nana's he got in trouble and ruined mine alex's paulina's and kenny's night p-head just chilled over here for a while then i got in trouble agan !!! that wasn't a good night
thursday-don't remember
friday-mall with p lex then we saw my cousins tehy hung with us the rest of the night saw a bunch of ppl i kno lol Loni is too much for me i sware! lol she is a crazy lil bitch! lol i luv u loni!
ok sat- uh family bowling me moms lex chelse and my extended family eric and paulina lmao! i love them mi sister and brother! wow um BARNS ANS NOBLES--ยป crazzi fcukin shit lmao the sex book section that was soo funny!!! those books can teach u alot about stuff and how to figure someone out..small teeth mean tight vagina lmao! and all teh postions u wouldn't even imagine!!! everyone should get a sex book and read up lmao..it shows how to jack urself off and massage ur own balls lmfao! that was hilarious ..and all the VERY DETAILED pictures! wow!!! ok moving onnnnnn then went to dd's nothign special i don't think i can't remember
sunday- chilled did my homework!! lol
todai- school sucked....then a game . . . we won vs islen mustangs! l o l it was F R E E Z I N G! ! ! how do i get this off of bold!? i dunno oh well um ok that sums it all up for now i guess not going into to much detail u don't need to knoe EVERYTHING!! lol
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